No pain No gain

i have this habit or a disease if u like to call it. I like to cut myself, burn myself, punch a wall, hammering my head into a door, like to see blood and to feel pain.

Its like an addiction a sudden rush for me, seeing blood gushing out. I have broken a fist, but i have broken more before this. Better broken than bleed.

I've tried to combat this disease, FYI : it is lesser than before. And u shud know it.

Its great if one of u good samaritan would like to help me but i f_ck_ng hate it if u told me not to do it but u not helping. Its like watching an old man got beat up while u r passing by.
If u dont like what im doing and u dont do anything bout it, just beat it. I dont want to hear any word from ur mouth regarding this.